Hello
Everyone,
This
week’s exercise of self-reflection is not a real “eye-opener” for me, but it is
a chance for you all to get to know the real me. Perhaps I should take this blog with me to my
health care professional so that he can read about my, self-perceived deficits
that are most likely attributing to my health.
A
– Physical wellbeing – I would rate that somewhere around a 7. My physiological tests of blood, bone and
tissue are all optimal and within normal limits, but I am overweight and have
hypertension. These lend negative energy
to my feeling of being tired a lot of the time.
B
– Spiritual wellbeing – I would rate that at about an 8. I have always been very spiritual and try
very hard to stay spiritually grounded but there are occasions in which I lose
my grounding and feel that I am drifting lost in the world. I am actually experiencing that feeling
today, but will find grounding here shortly.
I hope!
C
– Psychological wellbeing – Oh this one stinks!
I would say its somewhere around a 2-3. I am stressed, depressed, overworked and feel like my world is in a
holding pattern at the moment. I am in
the process of selling my home and I feel that I am at the mercy and whim of
everyone in my world. I am thinking this
is adding to my sense of losing my grounding as well. I definitely need to learn the technique to
taking back my world and my sanity.
My
Goals are as follows:
A
– Physical – Exercise more, Take my BP meds on a daily (regular) basis. One would think as a nurse, this should not be
a big problem, but I always seem to forget to take care of me. Maybe that should be my goal, all rolled up
into one. TAKE CARE OF ME (Sorry for the
shouting), it was only so I could hear myself through all of the noise inside
my head :-).
B
– Spiritual – Take time for me to relax more.
Also to work on exercises that will finally help me to believe that I do
have self-worth and I need to be better to myself.
C
– Psychological – Stop letting other people control my feelings. I know that I allow this to happen due to low
self-esteem. If I can increase my self-esteem and I should be able to regain a modicum of psychological control
over my life.
Through
practicing exercises designed to discover loving myself, I will begin the
journey toward meeting each goal. If I
can learn to love and nurture myself, I can easily achieve or at least begin
the process of transforming myself to be a healthier individual.
Listening
to the “Crime of the Century” exercise while relaxing, I found it rather
enlightening and it helped create a self-awareness of my need to value and
appreciate myself. It was the 5th
Chakra, The throat (Aqua Blue) that I had the most trouble visualizing and
holding on to. I found it quite
difficult to visualize the instructions because I do have such low will
power. This exercise quite literally
ties all of the other questions above, together. It is my lack of will power that will keep me
from obtaining Integral Health and a balance of Spirit, Mind and Body. I guess I better work on that.
Thoughts?
Thanks,
Rufus
J.
